I'm so glad that I'm quasi-evil. Seth Green's hot.
I'm talking to Kasey Bradley right now on ICQ. He's such a bitch. He was always really shitty to me in H.S. and even when I got out. I tried to help him and his band out several times but he always ignored me. He seems to be treating me decently tonight.
I'm sure there will be more of me for you later.

These are some Blogs that I was perusing this evening:
a winter's rose

Aneurysmic


THis one isn't a blog but interesting none the less. Sit down throw in some Radiohead and check out this site. The girl in the middle isn't even close to as hot as my girlfriend (are you my girlfriend yet? say yes!)
Half-project

Cera, I Love and Miss you very much
I'm 70% evil!

I went job searching today. I picked up like 5 applications. I've already turned in several. I stopped by the VP in town and talked to the manager, she said that she was getting ready to set up interviews and she'd call me. Of all the VP's I've ever been in that one is by far the shadiest. Is that a word? Probably not. Shady like Shady. Speaking of shady I was listening to an edited version of the Marshal Mathers LP this morning. What's the point. I stopped listening to it about 3 songs in because I was tired of listening to all the silent parts.
I've been looking at apartments in Chicago. I'd like to find a cheap house to live in since hopefully it's going to be at least 4 of us moving up there together. I found a two bedroom apartment that I think we could all fit into. I have to find something cheap because if I don't there's no way any of us will be able to do it. So if it's small I think I can deal with it. I'll be in chicago for crying out loud.
I looked at this place last night.
Here's where it is
I'm listening to Dido's No Angel. It's not really that great. Oh well.

So...
Cera and I are not going anywhere at the moment. Too bad. Cancun sounds really nice. I just wish I could spend more time with Cera. I'm just as likely to find a job in Bloomington as I am here. I know I sound like i'm just stupid in love but really. I have sooo much fun with Cera and it doesn't even matter what we're doing. Hell i had fun with her at a Monster Truck Rally! That's impressive.
Keep looking for a job and keep my goal to move with her to Chicago in the summer.

Well apparently Cera Angela and Ashley and I are taking of for a beach to live for awhile. Sounds great to me. I say Mexico. Cancun to be more accurate. She said she'd call me back soon. I think it's a fabulous idea. I wish I had money to help fund the venture.
Later from somewhere else maybe.

Today Amanda and I went to Mad-town. We saw Micah and hung out with him for awhile. We were playing frisbee in the park but it was almost too windy. I hung out at my house for quite awhile and my dad didn't show up. Oh well. Not much going on.
I miss Cera more and more everytime she leaves.

Oh you want good music huh?

The red-headed stranger is the last of a dying breed of folk-singers. His musical inspirations have touched the hearts and minds of many a hick and joe q public alike. Painting a picture with a soothing voice and early country style guitar playing. A confessed pot smoker and loving friend to many he lives in the hearts of all truck drivers.

I'm really stoned right now.

here are the lyrics to one of the first songs of the newly formed band: Fat Man Falling? (band name may be subject to change prices and partiticipation may vary)
I want a band We'll play some noise
when i'm all strung out I wanna be with my boys
I wanna scream I wanna dance
you'll be so fucked up you'll be in a trance
We'll be so bad we'll suck really hard
There's no security we can't afford guards
Outside the door kids will say wow
that music in there sounds like a cow
better dance now better dance now
if not on your feet i'll make you bow
if I'm acting strange up in your face
i'm probably just hwasted like a big disgrace

White Trash Night!
OK so the big date surprise was getting dressed up like total rednecks and going to the Monster Truck Rally. Yes I did say the Monster Truck Rally. Overall I think the intended goal for the evening was accomplished: Piss of some hicks, look at some incredibly disgusting mullets, and yell incredibly loud for the worst truck out there. Several weeks ago Cera and Angela were in Rensellear bored and they saw a John Deere sign that screamed "steal me!" So for white trash night they painted "Wolverine" on the back of it to take and hold up. It was funny. We got some really weird looks. The way I looked, if I saw myself out on the street, I'd kick my own ass. We had a lot of fun just running around acting like total assholes.
The after-rally plans didn't go so well. We were supposed to go to Matt's to get hwasted but Ryan got a migraine and bailed on us. So Angela, Cera, and I are driving to find Matt's place when we enter this apartment complex were every freakin' building looked exactly alike. Needless to say we didn't find it the first time or the second time. Angela was getting pissed because she wasn't going to get to see this girl named Ashley. It turns out that Ashley got a flat tire on the way to Indy.
I had a great time with Cera and really I had a lot of fun. If it wasn't for Angela's bitching it would have been a lot more fun. Let it roll.

I've got a date tonight!
I'm so excited. I still have no idea what's going on. Cera said she'd be here around 4. It's already almost noon.
I know I'll have fun.

I recorded some interesting stuff tonight. maybe I can talk to Al and figure out how I can post it for people to listen to.
Date with Cera tommorow night!!

This is a Q&A from Poppy Z Brite's website. She updates it herself which I think is fantastic.

"Q--I read on-line that a studio is going to do another Crow movie called Lazarus. It's supposed to star DMX and be about a gangster rapper. Did they just want to use the name or is this going to be a bastardized version of your work.

A--I doubt that it has anything to do with my book -- the parallels between the Crow mythos and the Biblical character Lazarus are obvious, so it's a natural title to choose. I like DMX and am seriously hoping this movie won't suck. But I don't keep up with movies, so for all I know, it has already come and gone."

She likes DMX??? how is this possible?
I wish Cera were here to read me to sleep.

THE SIMPSONS ARE ON!!!!!
WOO HOO!

"If we were so influenced by video games why didn't Pac-man make us all run around in the dark eating strange pills listening to techno music?"
All your base are belong to us.

Ever since the first time I saw "Clerks" I've wanted to work at a movie rental place. Today I took a personality test for the Movie Gallery which I'll be called about tommorow. I wish Micah were here to be the Dante to my Randal.
I wish it was Saturday. Cera said that we're all having dinner at Ryan's, doing whatever it is that we're doing, then going to Matt and Megans apartment. I still have no idea what we're doing. Cera asked me my pant size. I don't know why. Why would she need my pants size for an evening in Indy?
I look like eraserhead.

Well in typical "life of Sean" fashion, when it's bad, it gets worse. I talked to my dad for quite a while today and he said that he won't be able to sign a loan for me. After I got of the phone with him I cried for about 15 minutes, cut off my hair, cried some more, then I called the Institute to tell them, more crying and then a ridiculous amount of cleaning.
It's been such a wonderful day!

I'm having a bed-in today.
Not for peace and not against big buisness but because I Love Cera. That's right Love. I'm having a bed-in for Love. And if Cera were with me she'd be right next to me.
It's quite a dreary day here in the gut of Indiana. Depressing weather should always be accompanied by loud depressing music, low lighting, little food, and most importantly somewhere comfortable to just sink into all day. I hope my dad calls tonight with good news. I need him to tell me that I can go to school because he figured everything out.

Man, I want a cigarette.
I was quite productive today. Not really. I did get several applications and filled most of them out. Hopefully by the end of the week, I'll have a job. I took a nice nap. Listened to some music. Did some drawing. Ate some food. Yeah.... real exciting.
About as exciting as this;
Gumby!

Revolutionary Art Rock
Listening to "the lou reeds collective" I'm thinking about Deric and what silly rabbit he is.
I miss you Cera.

The harsh bitter truth of reality hit me with quite a blow today as I watched her driving away. We had such a fantastic weekend of just hanging out with one another (no obstractions) watching movies and making out. It was wonderful. I think she had a good time. I hope so anyway. She was taken away this evening in a such a hurry there was little time for releasing one another once again. It's usually a long process. I miss her just as much as I would any other time but the let down of her going was not a harsh as the long drawn-out times.
We had a great time watching "The Stand" which is 6 hours long. It was an all day process, but an interesting movie. I thought Satan's role could have been more developed. They concentrated on "good guy's" a lot more than the "bad guy's" I guess they do that in most moving though don't they? Oh well it was a great day with Cera, exept for the beating I recieved for about 30 minutes. She's so funny and fun. It's interesting, Instead of fighting about something we internalize whatever it was and hurt ourselves. I think I have things to work out. We've never had a fight. We're both so easy going about things that we don't have any objections to what the other person does as long as they're having fun. I Love her.

Word of the Day: Counter-top

THis is the end...
I wrote a pretty good song the other night. Maybe I'll post the lyrics soon. I slept with Cera today until 4PM it was great. We got home around 5 this morning. I had to drive through the snow because I was the only straight one of the five of us. We were waiting for alchohol last night but it never showed up and we were all tired so we just left. Ashley (the girls house that we were at last night) is really cool. I think Angela should make out with her and come to the realization that she's a lesbian.

Daddy would you like some sausage?
Daddy would you like some sausage?
;-& Smokin'

Here I am in Bloomington having a lovely evening with Ms. Cera. It's fun to be here.
Angela smoked some crack I think.
Later

Well back to the phone book for me. She said that the designer that she had previously spoken with showed up and worked with her last night. I suck anyway. I understand her position, I would much rather have someone who know his stuff than some student who can figure stuff out. Knowing things helps I guess. Taco Bell is calling my name.

They say it's my birthday! Well happy birthday to me then.
I went to meet Leah about the Design job but she wasn't there, her daughter was sick so I told her husband that I would come back around 12. I'm really nervous.

OK I was just surfing through Blogs for like 2 and a half hours. Hello everyone. I decided to e-mail everyone blog that I thought was cool or funny or geeky. (Go for the PS2!)
Everyone wish me luck I'm going tommorow to see about a graphic design job!

I forgot to tell a crazy story. The other day on our way back from Muncie I almost won a Jeep. I swear. OK As we were driving along I saw this guy cruise by us on the right which is where I was sitting. He had a headset on which isn't strange since so many people have cell phones with headsets. But as he passed us I looked at the back of his car and his licence plate which read "hershe 1" He had a few small hersey stickers on the back of his car and they were the only markings. Yes, I saw one of the guys trying to give away a Jeep. Unfortuanalty for me I didn't had any herseys products so as we were following him I ran into a gas station to grab something. We lost him. Terrible.

Waking up for 15 minutes in the morning to have a cup of coffee, check my mail, and then go back to sleep is great. Before Amanda goes to work in the morning she's sits down for coffee and of late I've been joining her. The best part is going back to sleep though.
I hope you all have a great day
while I'm asleep!

I'm officially living in Franklin now.
I talked to Cera last night for quite a while on the phone. I was fucked up and I'm sure that was interesting for her. Not really. Probably sucked. I was still weird for most of the day today. I met Sarah's parents today and that was strange. They seemed like mice people and that they were looking out for her. Pretty mellow day otherwise.
Tommorow is job day. The goal: Collect a fuck-load of applications and turn them all in. Seems simple enough doesn't it. The hard part is getting one of them to call me. I figure I'll go around downtown to find some and then go with Sarah to the commercial part of town.
I talked to Cera today too and she told me that I'm going with her and some of the other Bloomington cats to Indy next Saturday for something fun. She's really excited and it's a surprise so I have no idea what's going on. Yay! I Love surprises.
I have my guitar here so I'm going to explore the web and find some TAB.

Grr.... back in Muncie. I kindof hate it. I'n on Robo though so it's a bit different isn't it. Yes, everything is a bit different. I wonder if anyone is reading this maybe those people should sign my GUESTBOOK!
Yeah sign that shit yo'!

I just read an interesting article at Nerve. Nerve is a site dedicated to artfully portraying sex. Everything artisitc relating to sex. It's really interesting and some of the stuff is really cool. I enjoy the openness of it all. Sex has always been a "quiet" part of my life. Oh.. you can't talk about that. Fuck it. The article was called The Art of Noise and as you can guess it's about noisy sex. It does more than just talk about noisy sex; it explores it and questions why people do it. I've been thinking about writing something to send. Maybe I will.

Woo-Hoo! I really like my guestbook. It's much cooler than Lindsay's. I was productive this morning. I mailed some important stuff, worked on my guestbook, skated around the courthouse, asked about employment at a few places, and I took a shower. And it's before noon!
I did do something stupid today though. I saw a cop parked perpendicular to a street in between several cars. I thought to myself no-one is going to be able to see him if they're driving passed, I should say something. I skated up behind his car and said "Nice speed trap you got set up here."
To which he replied, "Actually I'm waiting to escort this funeral procession."
"Oh..."
As I turned around I could see people coming slowly out of the funeral parlor. It feels really bad to be a jerk to a cop when he hasn't done anything wrong. If he ever sees me skating somewhere that's posted I'm sure he'll be all over me.
Making enemies out of cops already and I've only been here for 2 days.

I had a great weekend with Cera. If she ever decides to send me another picture of herself I'll put it up. I'm going to try to find a guestbook to put up so all 4 of you that read my page can make witty comments about my life. I tried to find a Franklin Newspaper website with no luck. Apparently the Franklin paper doesn't feel that online advertising will make them any money. Maybe I could talk them into paying me a bunch of money to be their webmaster. Right.... you guys know I have so much skill with HTML HA!
Song of the Moment:
Piggy- Nine Inch Nails

That's so hilarious. I have absolutely no recollection of the last post. I was really hwasted last night. I had a good time though. Well before I passed out anyway. Sarah called in sick today and aparently slept all day at her friends house. I guess we're going to franklin tonight and I want Cera to go with us.
Song of the moment:
Sex is Violent- Jane's Addiction

I'm hwasted. Now wasted is wasted but hwasted in really fucked up like I am right now. I got to Franklin safley and hung out with some of Amanda's friends until Sarah came home. She told me she was going to Bloomington and that I should come. SO I was like hell yeah, and know I'm sitting in Cera's apartment having a good time. Today is Corina's birthday so they're having a slumber party. FUN.

Damn... I was supposed to get a ride to Indy this afternoon by a friend of mine but it fell through. He had to work on some things and I understand. So, I called up Tyler whom I havn't talked to in like a year and asked him if he would give me a ride. he said yes but that it would be around 4: 30. Hopefully Amanda will still be at work when I get there. She said she was leaving early to go home and get ready for her date.
I HAVE to get to Franklin tonight. Cera's coming tommorow which reminds me that I need to send her directions. Wish me luck everyone.

I'm moving out of this town. It's depressing. All I do is drink and do drugs. It's not good, not productive, not healthy. I'm moving to Franklin, IN where I have a friend who invited me to move in for free. I'll be 30 minutes from Indy and like 30 minute from Bloomington. Hopefully I can go there tommorow and have a job by the end of the weekend. I really need to save money for school. I really need to do a lot of things and I'm not going to get them done here.
So this will probably be my last post from Muncie. So long shitty town.

Welcome to the New Year.
Right now I'm in Rensselaer, IN with Cera. I'm having a great time with her family and I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to get to Muncie. Don't really want to go to Muncie, but you know. I ate a ridiculous amount of food today, it was great. I was thinking about Ocean Beach today. I really like the environment out there.
I talked to my advisor at the Illinois Institute of Art today. Hopefully if all the loan stuff turns out I'll be attending in April. The IIoA is in Chicago. Downtown Chicago. I love Chicago. I went once and fell in Love.