Happy Halloween.
I'm going to get really wasted tonight. Big surprise huh.
I ate a dose the other night and tripped for 8 hours straight. I got lost in a pool. gratuitous spaciousness.
We went out to this point that overlooks downtown and it was really cool. Looking down at the city and thinking about all the different things that were going on right in front of me. Crazy.
I hope everyone has a fantastic night. I know i will.
10.26.2003
10.24.2003
10.22.2003
The smallest form of existence is the atom. dense mass core, satellites, and space. Everything and nothingness all explained to us by the smallest form of energy. Energy is everything that there is. The law of conservation of energy states that energy may neither be created nor destroyed. This means that there is only so much energy floating around out there, and obviously there is only so much energy that we will have in our lifetimes. Eventually all the energy that makes up what I am will be gone. Gone in the form of something else.
There are forms of energy transfer that are not often thought of. Let's do an experiment.
Energy is Truth.
Now let's talk about all the ways energy was just transfered. The first was my thinking (electronic impulses in my brain) the statement "Energy is Truth." Then I used energy in my muscles to move my fingers to type. As my fingers touched the keys it sent a signal into my computer making the statement appear to me on my monitor as pixels. When I posted this on my site, a server somewhere recieved my digital data and recorded it to a hard-drive. When you typed in the address of my site your brain was sending out the signal to your fingers that you wanted to see what I had to say today. Reading the data on that same hard-drive your computer translated it so you could read these words. When you read the statement your eyes were looking at the words which your brain translated in a way that only you can understand.
Energy is amazing. It is everything that is not space. I am effecting your energy right now. Is it coincedence that the smallest thing we know of looks just like the biggest thing we know of. I don't think so. We must take full advantage of our life energy and try to use our energy for good. Creation is the highest form of energy. Art, Birth, Music, Blogging; all these things are created by people who are using their energy in ways that affect not only their local environment but possibly the whole world.
There is energy and nothingness. Everything that is energy is truth.
Look how much our solar system looks like the atom. Flatten it out and look at it from the side. Here you go:
This is a near-infrared picture of the Milky Way.
Saturday morning Micah and I headed out to Red River Gorge.
it was a great drive down and we found the trail-head with a tiny bit of difficulty. Once we found the trail we loaded up our beer, food, and blankets for the night. We found Micah's friends easily and hung out for awhile. We drank beers and roasted marshmallows. The woods around the camp were lit up from our fire and it was so wonderfully quiet. Dave who had planned the trip was drinking some booze out of a canteen and I asked what it was. 99 blueberries was the response. Highly recomended.
After we relaxed, ate, and the sun went down Beth and Zack talked about an overlook that they had found before. We all got ready and headed out. Walking around in the woods with a flashlight, laughing, talking was great. Once we got to the point it was beautiful. We looked out over this valley that was dark and above us the milky way shimmered. We sat and stared at the sky with our mouths open at how huge it was. We all made up constellations that don't exist anywhere other than our minds like 'the dolphin' and 'the sperm'. We talked about super-powers and needles and the cars that drove past on the road below us. Micah and I got pretty stoned and chilled while everyone talked and looked up. We saw some shooting stars and then a couple showed up and totaly harshed my mellow. We didn't want them to be there and they didn't want us there so I tried to get everyone rounded up to head back to camp. It took awhile since we were all intoxicated. We got back to camp and after some sassafras tea that I dug up everyone pretty much went to sleep. I stayed next to the fire and woke up every once in awhile to put wood on the fire. I fell asleep with a log to my back and a smile on my face.
When I woke up Micah was messing with the fire and the sun had just come up. Zack had gotten up and was making coffee. I sat and felt the heat off the fire. It was so peacefull to wake up and have absolutly no obligations for the day.
Zack and Micah decided that they were going out to the lookout to watch the sun rise over the valley. I went back to sleep and woke up to some people coming into camp. It was Mike and his girl whosenameican'tremember. We'll call her kristen just for editing purposes. So we talked to them and found out that they had slept in their car at the trailhead. Micah was off to Nashville so we told him good-bye and he was gone.
I asked everyone if they were cool with me staying even though none of us really knew eachother. Everyone was pretty positive about me staying and it made me happy. I threw together some food and talked to Dave. We were both cooking different things and bonce around different ideas for what to do with our fantastic day. I asked if he had a topo map and he did. I looked at the map and choose a route for us to hike for the day. I told everyone about it and we all got ready. We set out and headed down a steep hill. After awhile we got below the cliff-line and we found a couple different caves. One was 'confessional cave' and the other one was 'Dave's Bed Cave' Shortly after we found those we got down to the main creek. We walked and crossed the creek uncoutable times. We found a train wheel. We found someone else's campsite and two rocks tied to a string. I didn't see it but Dave saw a dead racoon.
We got to the road and the river but didn't see any sign of the footbridge that was marked on the map. Looking at it I knew exactly where we were. We had the option to take the road (the longest path back to camp) or take on the hillside. Dave and I consulted the map and picked out a ravine that seemed hikable. As we went up I found a large hole that an animal was probably living in but I counldn't decide what animal. We got about 3/4 of the way up and got faced with 100 foot cliffs all around us. We cut across to the other side through all these holly trees. Once we all got across we came to a really sketchy section of hillside that was questionable as to it's saftey. I told everyone to wait until I got to the top to tell them if it was cool or not. It was certainly difficult but I was confident that everyone could make it and we all did. The view was great and we pushed on. We hiked past 3 different ridges and went through lots of sticker bushes. At the end of one of the ridges was a cliff, we saw some smoke coming from the bottom of the cliff and didn't think much about it. When we got back to camp we all relaxed and ate some food. I looked at the map later and checked the scale and found out that we had hiked 4 miles.
Dave and I decided that we really needed to get beer to celebrate our triumphant return to camp. (Greatly simplified version) We drove, we drove, we got wierd looks, we drove, we got told no a lot, we drove and then I got the idea that we might be able to find some moonshine. I stopped at a local store in the gorge and asked some old timers who had no idea what I was talking about. SOme redneck girl said something to me that i couldn't hear so i walked over to her.
"You got a joint?"
"Maybe... do you know where I could get some moon-shine?"
"yeah but it's like 10-15 miles away"
"Ok let's go you can ride with us"
"I don't know, you going to smoke with us?"
"Take me to get the moonshine and come back to camp with us."
"I can't go"
"What do you mean... you want to get high, i want some moonshine, what's the problem?"
"I can't go anywhere"
It hit me at that moment that she just wanted to trick me out of a joint by saying she knew where to get me moonshine when she really had no idea. I GOT HOSED!!
Beerless, Moonshineless, and very dissapointed we returned to camp. Everyone was chilling so I joined them and we prepared for our night retreat to the lookout. We had some friends with us. Doober, 99 Blueberries, and So Co. We smoked and all sat back marveling at the stars when we heard someone coming down the trail.
"We're with the Sheriffs Department. We had a report of a bright glow coming off the end of one of these ridges."
We told him about the smoke we had seen and showed him where we saw it from. Their were some guys out in trucks that were looking for the fire that had radios. They talked back and forth in that mysterious code until as one of the trucks guys was looking for our flashlights to see our location he said this.
"I think i see you... no that's an airplane." Oh my we all busted out laughing and it was great. They eventually left and thanked us for our help. We all decided that it was probably just some people camped at the base of the cliff.
When we got back to camp Dave and Zack and I talked about energy for a long time and passed out.
We woke up and decided to head back to the natti so we did. I rode with Dave on the way back and mostly we listened to music.
I had such a fantastic time this weekend and I want to thank everyone who had any part of it. Yeah that probably means you.
later
it was a great drive down and we found the trail-head with a tiny bit of difficulty. Once we found the trail we loaded up our beer, food, and blankets for the night. We found Micah's friends easily and hung out for awhile. We drank beers and roasted marshmallows. The woods around the camp were lit up from our fire and it was so wonderfully quiet. Dave who had planned the trip was drinking some booze out of a canteen and I asked what it was. 99 blueberries was the response. Highly recomended.
After we relaxed, ate, and the sun went down Beth and Zack talked about an overlook that they had found before. We all got ready and headed out. Walking around in the woods with a flashlight, laughing, talking was great. Once we got to the point it was beautiful. We looked out over this valley that was dark and above us the milky way shimmered. We sat and stared at the sky with our mouths open at how huge it was. We all made up constellations that don't exist anywhere other than our minds like 'the dolphin' and 'the sperm'. We talked about super-powers and needles and the cars that drove past on the road below us. Micah and I got pretty stoned and chilled while everyone talked and looked up. We saw some shooting stars and then a couple showed up and totaly harshed my mellow. We didn't want them to be there and they didn't want us there so I tried to get everyone rounded up to head back to camp. It took awhile since we were all intoxicated. We got back to camp and after some sassafras tea that I dug up everyone pretty much went to sleep. I stayed next to the fire and woke up every once in awhile to put wood on the fire. I fell asleep with a log to my back and a smile on my face.
When I woke up Micah was messing with the fire and the sun had just come up. Zack had gotten up and was making coffee. I sat and felt the heat off the fire. It was so peacefull to wake up and have absolutly no obligations for the day.
Zack and Micah decided that they were going out to the lookout to watch the sun rise over the valley. I went back to sleep and woke up to some people coming into camp. It was Mike and his girl whosenameican'tremember. We'll call her kristen just for editing purposes. So we talked to them and found out that they had slept in their car at the trailhead. Micah was off to Nashville so we told him good-bye and he was gone.
I asked everyone if they were cool with me staying even though none of us really knew eachother. Everyone was pretty positive about me staying and it made me happy. I threw together some food and talked to Dave. We were both cooking different things and bonce around different ideas for what to do with our fantastic day. I asked if he had a topo map and he did. I looked at the map and choose a route for us to hike for the day. I told everyone about it and we all got ready. We set out and headed down a steep hill. After awhile we got below the cliff-line and we found a couple different caves. One was 'confessional cave' and the other one was 'Dave's Bed Cave' Shortly after we found those we got down to the main creek. We walked and crossed the creek uncoutable times. We found a train wheel. We found someone else's campsite and two rocks tied to a string. I didn't see it but Dave saw a dead racoon.
We got to the road and the river but didn't see any sign of the footbridge that was marked on the map. Looking at it I knew exactly where we were. We had the option to take the road (the longest path back to camp) or take on the hillside. Dave and I consulted the map and picked out a ravine that seemed hikable. As we went up I found a large hole that an animal was probably living in but I counldn't decide what animal. We got about 3/4 of the way up and got faced with 100 foot cliffs all around us. We cut across to the other side through all these holly trees. Once we all got across we came to a really sketchy section of hillside that was questionable as to it's saftey. I told everyone to wait until I got to the top to tell them if it was cool or not. It was certainly difficult but I was confident that everyone could make it and we all did. The view was great and we pushed on. We hiked past 3 different ridges and went through lots of sticker bushes. At the end of one of the ridges was a cliff, we saw some smoke coming from the bottom of the cliff and didn't think much about it. When we got back to camp we all relaxed and ate some food. I looked at the map later and checked the scale and found out that we had hiked 4 miles.
Dave and I decided that we really needed to get beer to celebrate our triumphant return to camp. (Greatly simplified version) We drove, we drove, we got wierd looks, we drove, we got told no a lot, we drove and then I got the idea that we might be able to find some moonshine. I stopped at a local store in the gorge and asked some old timers who had no idea what I was talking about. SOme redneck girl said something to me that i couldn't hear so i walked over to her.
"You got a joint?"
"Maybe... do you know where I could get some moon-shine?"
"yeah but it's like 10-15 miles away"
"Ok let's go you can ride with us"
"I don't know, you going to smoke with us?"
"Take me to get the moonshine and come back to camp with us."
"I can't go"
"What do you mean... you want to get high, i want some moonshine, what's the problem?"
"I can't go anywhere"
It hit me at that moment that she just wanted to trick me out of a joint by saying she knew where to get me moonshine when she really had no idea. I GOT HOSED!!
Beerless, Moonshineless, and very dissapointed we returned to camp. Everyone was chilling so I joined them and we prepared for our night retreat to the lookout. We had some friends with us. Doober, 99 Blueberries, and So Co. We smoked and all sat back marveling at the stars when we heard someone coming down the trail.
"We're with the Sheriffs Department. We had a report of a bright glow coming off the end of one of these ridges."
We told him about the smoke we had seen and showed him where we saw it from. Their were some guys out in trucks that were looking for the fire that had radios. They talked back and forth in that mysterious code until as one of the trucks guys was looking for our flashlights to see our location he said this.
"I think i see you... no that's an airplane." Oh my we all busted out laughing and it was great. They eventually left and thanked us for our help. We all decided that it was probably just some people camped at the base of the cliff.
When we got back to camp Dave and Zack and I talked about energy for a long time and passed out.
We woke up and decided to head back to the natti so we did. I rode with Dave on the way back and mostly we listened to music.
I had such a fantastic time this weekend and I want to thank everyone who had any part of it. Yeah that probably means you.
later
(You are stellar)
Meet me in outer space
we could spend the night
watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place
won't you come with me
we could start again
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
Meet me in outer space
I will hold you close
if your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place
it might be the only way
that I can show you how
it feels to be inside of you
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
how do you do it
make me feel like I do
Do, oh oh oh oh oh
you are stellar
you are stellar
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
how do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
make me feel like I do, yeah
Incubus
Meet me in outer space
we could spend the night
watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place
won't you come with me
we could start again
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
Meet me in outer space
I will hold you close
if your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place
it might be the only way
that I can show you how
it feels to be inside of you
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
how do you do it
make me feel like I do
Do, oh oh oh oh oh
you are stellar
you are stellar
How do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
it's better than I ever knew, ooh
how do you do it
make me feel like I do
how do you do it
make me feel like I do, yeah
Incubus
10.18.2003
Burroughs
went to the party and it was lame. went to mike's and played guitar and it was cool. I'm pretty tired actually. I talked to Virginia and she's busy all week-end. lame.
I'm trying to decide if I want to smoke my last cigarette. I hate how it's 3 o'clock in the morning and i want to talk to someone. anyone. blood pumping. eyes blinking.
went to the party and it was lame. went to mike's and played guitar and it was cool. I'm pretty tired actually. I talked to Virginia and she's busy all week-end. lame.
I'm trying to decide if I want to smoke my last cigarette. I hate how it's 3 o'clock in the morning and i want to talk to someone. anyone. blood pumping. eyes blinking.
10.15.2003
I have a secret.
I dig librarians. If i knew some hottie librarian, i'd be her slave. She could make me alphabetize those magazines that everyone looks and i'd love it.
anyway I found this today and thought it was interesting.
Weblogs as Libraries
When I was 16 years old I thought Weezer was the coolest band in the whole world. Crazy things have happened in my life over the past 5 years.
Say it ain't so
I still love Weezer
check this out too:
Rivers is looking older too
I dig librarians. If i knew some hottie librarian, i'd be her slave. She could make me alphabetize those magazines that everyone looks and i'd love it.
anyway I found this today and thought it was interesting.
Weblogs as Libraries
When I was 16 years old I thought Weezer was the coolest band in the whole world. Crazy things have happened in my life over the past 5 years.
Say it ain't so
I still love Weezer
check this out too:
Rivers is looking older too
10.14.2003
Mother mother fuck. I just wrote a great entry and it surfed on out into the void.
Summary:
Talked to Virginia and she said that she "has a lot going on" and she "doesn't want to hurt me"
1. a lot going on translates to she's seeing someone else
2. my balls would have to be cut off before I would say some girl hurt me.
I've been through too much to give a fuck. Anyone who listens to Nirvana (and if you don't you should leave my page now) should bust out Bleach and listen to how bad-ass the solo is in Love Buzz. It's delicious.
"Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart"
swap meet-- Nirvana
Summary:
Talked to Virginia and she said that she "has a lot going on" and she "doesn't want to hurt me"
1. a lot going on translates to she's seeing someone else
2. my balls would have to be cut off before I would say some girl hurt me.
I've been through too much to give a fuck. Anyone who listens to Nirvana (and if you don't you should leave my page now) should bust out Bleach and listen to how bad-ass the solo is in Love Buzz. It's delicious.
"Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart"
swap meet-- Nirvana
10.12.2003
I had a wierd week-end. No I'm not going to talk about it. I'm just glad to be back in the nati. I drank with Virginia tonight and watched Cannibal the Musical. I'm really stoked about meeting her. Thank you madeline. We've had some really cool conversations. I showed her some of my pictures and other random stuff from my past. It was awesome, she actually seemed interested. You know how sometimes you'll show someone some of your pictures and they just kindof flip through them, well she actually looked at them and asked questions. It made me so happy.
time waits for no man.
"only in dreams
we'll see what it means" -Weezer
time waits for no man.
"only in dreams
we'll see what it means" -Weezer
10.03.2003
I've been playing my guitar like a madman and I need new strings already. i guess I'll just have to take it easy. No fucking way... Nothing will stop the noise!!! I just got off work and took a shower. Ah Clean.
My plans for the evening, cheap booze and good company. Hopefully. Otherwise I'll just have to drink myself stupid.
Monday is 'get things done' day. There are a couple of things I've been slacking on so I need to wrap those up.
Nap maybe?
My plans for the evening, cheap booze and good company. Hopefully. Otherwise I'll just have to drink myself stupid.
Monday is 'get things done' day. There are a couple of things I've been slacking on so I need to wrap those up.
Nap maybe?
