I'm really sorry to anyone who I have not talked to in the past week (linz) but I've worked 26 hours in the past three days. It's Wed. Night skate thrashathon so I'm really stoked to be here at the studio.
My Dad is having surgery on his heart right now in Louisville, Ky. I'm really fucking freaked out about it but I think everything will be OK. He's not even close to being old. It's stupid. I Love him very much and I still need him. Everyone, please think good thoughts about my dad.


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Hey... shplanzamans.

Written on my work folder.

Salty dogs
of evening shade
let them lay
and don't invade
the slumber

Don't let it crumble
into non-existance
it's the reality resistance
that's keeping them
sleepy

The sandman snags
the disenchanted
who took for granted
their freedom
and he calls them patriots

If you are reading this then you need to comment on what you are about to read. Even if it's a 'hey fuck you sean' that would really make me happy. I've been writing here a lot lately and I want to know what you think. All I ask is for honesty.

This world was fucked before I got here
It was your god that taught me fear
when I should be comfortable
not like you
I've got a clue
to the power structure
madness
that causing all this sadness
I'm starting to think
that I don't belong
with everyone telling me I'm wrong
for just being passive
I don't see the TV as a positive
It's seperation and destruction they give
that's soaking society
'you're not allowed'
is too loud now for differentiation
of morals and ethics
Your god told you not to kill
but you can't find enough holes to fill
with women and children
they're just not productive
and they're not standing in line
for their piece of profit
I guess they're just too stupid
to see the cost-benifit of death
And when I take a breath...
the carbon-monoxide
feels like genocide

No mistakes and no retakes
no time to regret
that which I cannot change
It seems so strange
for you to be so far
when I'm still loving you every day

I watch the girls walk by and
they try to impress
but I think of them less
when I'm still dreaming of you
loving the light like liquid
and spinning through the rain

I thought it was a blessing
to watch you undressing
in your cool and casual way
I whispered verses
and sunlight curses
but I've not seen it for days

I have to go to Madison today. I went to the telemarketing job and they said I have to have a valid ID to work. I don't understand that. But... I've gotten so much shit for not having a valid ID that I just need to get one. My Dad's been really sick lately so I really want to see him.
I feel pretty worthless today. I'm getting all tense again and it's a struggle just to relax. I don't really have time to relax though. I'll be working like 5 doubles next week at the telemarketing job. I just don't know how I'm going to eat.

It's so precious
the light in your eyes
all the daydreams and mysteries
you slow down to find

It's the seeking
that's so intriging
the adventure for truth
and freedom is now

In the ways
we interact with the facts
translated and harmonized
through our conversation

Intersept the message
as we create the universe
for eachother
in holographic psycho-spheres

Inside outside
is a close to seperation
as matter can get
even the fused is far from one

It's the sexy
destination we strive for
in our everyday group meditation
for the neusole

Into the hole
the rabbit knows
life is stream of conscience while
the world is shrinking

In the reflection
we strive for perfection
of form or grace
while we can show eachother
how beautiful we are

waterwheel

I went to the interview and got the job but I'm not sure when I start. I'll have to call them tommorow. After Mark and I spent an hour trying to find the place I got there with 10 minutes to spare. The 'interview' consisted of this jackass telling us to read scripts to him and then he told us they would be in touch. After that I went to my friend Dave's new house. He was still at work so I walked around and went to the Silverton Cafe. This place was oozing redneck all over the walls and had a smell of blind nationalism. I ordered some onion rings and a beer. The beer was barely cold but the onion rings were awesome. Some guys were at the end of the bar watching golf and I heard one of them call Chenney a bastard. I asked them if they were planning on voting this year and they all agreed. I asked what they thought of Kerry and one of the guys said he doesn't talk politics at the bar. I said fair and payed my bill.
Anyway... I went back to Dave's house and I chilled there until he got home. We drank a few and then we went to the studio. He brought his theriman (sp?) and made some crazy noise. it was great. I miss Micah and I want to see him damnit! He's so damned busy all the time. Or asleep. One of the two but never at the same time.

Sara. I Love You. I can't really keep it in. I'm still intoxicated by your motion. You're like a star that's gone now but it's so far away we still see it.

I'm currently reading through every section of the Patriot Act. I'm going through and taking notes on articles of interest. What it seems like so far is that during a 'national emergency' martial law will break out under the direct control of the president. It's fucking scary. The difficult part comes when a section of the Patriot act refers to another bill or article. It doesn't state what the mentioned article says it just states it's ammendments to it. So I've had to dig up things like: Section 402 of the Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Act of 1978 (50 U.S.C. 1842) is amended-- it's ridiculous. Laws for spying on other countries.

I'm going to see about a telemarketing job today. My friend rebecca said that if I show up I'll get the job so that's cool. I think they sell newspaper subscribtions.
I'm so behind... It's going to be like 2 months before I'll be able to get a place. It hurts.

water tension

I'm searching for your shapes in the shadows
and It's nice to finally met you
but 515 miles is a long way to see

Boxed in and confined to the prying eyes
of the floor without doors
bleeds with the mindnumbing drone of television frequency

It's causing mass delinquency
if that histeria sells to the right area
we can see outside this universe

Fluid Dynamics and psycho-mechanics
continue to intrigue the think tanks
while artists flow to it every day

I have to apologize to an 8th grade class in Australia. Sorry for breaking rules on your site and I didn't mean it.
Don't be mad... I thought you guys were a bunch of American college kids talking about trendy fashion. That's a compliment for 8th graders right?

I arranged John's glass in the gallery today.