3.30.2006


Artwork: GreyIII Scale unknown

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and science. He to whom the emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand wrapped in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed. The insight into the mystery of life, coupled though it be with fear, has also given rise to religion. To know what is impenetrable to us really exists, manifesting itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty, which our dull faculties can comprehend only in their most primitive forms- this knowledge, this feeling is at the center of true religiousness."
-Albert Einstien

3.27.2006

I'm working with
half finished phrases
sunny rainy days
everything feels
like hesitation
I breath
I walk
I stare out at nothing
in particular
It's the sea-view
no clue lifestyle
that's bothering me
how can I work my way
out of this wet paper bag
I was destined
for this
I made it so
I let it all go
now I don't have
anyone to hold onto

I've been building
in my brain
a ship made from rain
and dirt and sky
why do I feel so content
no rent
no bills
no more amphetemine pills
to string me out
just as I get used to
a place I decide I need to leave

what's this life
that I'm leading
reading all the road signs
wrestle with all the lines
that I'm trying to write
what's right
no more light
to lead
me on
go home
roam alone
no bone
to pick
new stick
sick sick sick sick sick
it feels less like adventure
now that I've arrived

3.26.2006

I gave my dad the address for this page. I've been writing here for around 4 years now and not once has he read any of it. Well here it is dad the unedited unscripted sometimes a bit rambling thought transmission to the universe at large.



This is me and Shaka my adopted Military Mackaw. He's got quite temper but for some reason he likes me pretty well.

My writing has completely stopped. I have some stories about some places here on the island that I've adventured to but no words seem to really express my joy in being here. It's kindof wierd how stoked I am every day that I wake up. It's not something I'm used to. Actually I miss wondering if I would make it through the day, or rather I miss trying hard. Most things are really easy-going here and I miss the intensity of the city. Chaos is something I enjoy and I take great amusement watching it happen around me.
THere has been some drama here... This Jamacan man named Congo moved onto the farm and at first he seemed like he would be a great person to have around. We were quite open to him but it was hard to understand what he was saying at times. This made him angry and that was just the start. He tried to convince us that we were the enemy and that it was his mission to end slackerdom such as ours. He raised a machette at me when I asked him why he wasn't working one day and then he left the farm. I let out a sigh of relief until the next week when he came back. Things adjusting and just when I thought things might be cool he storms into the warehouse screaming about corn. THat's right I said corn. Apparently he planted some corn in a weedy area in the garden and then Tai ran over it with the tractor. $3 worth of corn seed churned back into the earth and this guy freaks! He brandished once again a machette at Tai telling him he has to re-plant the corn. Tai is confused and scared but doesn't back down. THe next day Zach told Congo to leave. What a mess. No body parts were lost in the making of this story. Now Go Home!!

3.25.2006

Woodford Music Festival

round-trip expenses about $8,000


anyone what to give me a loansky?

3.14.2006

"Life on a manor was extremely hard for a peasant. It consisted of work and family life. Approximately ninety percent of the people in the middle ages were considered to be peasants. There was a division of the peasants into free and a type of indentured servants. The free peasants worked in their own independent businesses, usually as carpenters, blacksmiths, weavers, or bakers. They paid the lord a type of rent for using their small plots of land. The other, unfree peasants lived on the land without paying any money, but worked for the lord, earning their stay.
The large amount of land surrounding the castle provided a means for peasants to acquire enough money and food to live by farming. In fact, this is another extension of the fief idea. The average farmer was given a plot of land on which he could farm. He also got a sense of security by living near a castle and potential protection from danger. They also had the privilege of passing their land on through inheritance after their deaths. They had grazing and field rights around their village. They also had right to building materials in the area. They did not have right to hunt most wild game, however.
The lord also had a great deal of control over his peasants, known as serfs. In fact, the serfs were almost like slaves to the feudal lord. He had the right to grant marriages, tax anytime or anything, and to force them to use mills or ovens that he owned. He most often made his serfs work his own land."
http://library.thinkquest.org/10949/fief/lofeudal.html

3.08.2006

THe waves are pretty chill today and so am I. I've been quiet today. Thinking about being lonely but I need to focus on my own actions. I miss the deep connection I shared with my friends. Everything (again) here is so transitory what is real one day is gone the next. It's like the rain. It'll rain for some of the day but the rest will be sunny. I want to share these emotions with someone. It's the same thing I wanted back in the natti just seems like less possibilities here. Less time.
I need someone to desire to care abour to hold at night while we dream together. I read my tarot last night and it was all transition new adventure stuff. All quite applicable to my current channel. I've got to relax about people. I've tried to to rid myself of my insecurities about my past. It's all bullshit drama that other people caused. I have to release these painful memeories that affect my relations with new people.
Speaking of new people. I have my eye on a very interesting attractive woman. I've never dated a red-head before and I think this girl is totally my stlye. I don't know if she's into me but I'll take it slow and find out more about her. She came out here for dolphins. That's hot.

3.07.2006

My attempts to get someone I love to come to Hawaii have failed.
"I don't want to change the world
I'm not looking for New England
I'm just looking for another girl
I'm just looking for another girl"
Billy Bragg

SO I guess I'll just have to find some hot middle-aged woman to satisfy my thirst.

Things are moving along here and it feels like I've been here a year already. What's the difference?

I'm tired.

We went to Hounounou to snorkle and I felt like I was in a big aquarium with the claymation fish from Life Aquatic.

3.04.2006

Picture Pages Picture Pages...

Elise was so kind to post pictures from the last week she was here.
I miss you.













the group photo is Tai, Elise, Sarah, Me, Thomas, Dean at Waipio.


Hope you enjoy!
Thanks Elise