I have a secret.

I dig librarians. If i knew some hottie librarian, i'd be her slave. She could make me alphabetize those magazines that everyone looks and i'd love it.
anyway I found this today and thought it was interesting.
Weblogs as Libraries

When I was 16 years old I thought Weezer was the coolest band in the whole world. Crazy things have happened in my life over the past 5 years.
Say it ain't so
I still love Weezer


check this out too:
Rivers is looking older too

Anyone want to go to Big Bear with me this winter?

Mother mother fuck. I just wrote a great entry and it surfed on out into the void.

Summary:
Talked to Virginia and she said that she "has a lot going on" and she "doesn't want to hurt me"
1. a lot going on translates to she's seeing someone else
2. my balls would have to be cut off before I would say some girl hurt me.

I've been through too much to give a fuck. Anyone who listens to Nirvana (and if you don't you should leave my page now) should bust out Bleach and listen to how bad-ass the solo is in Love Buzz. It's delicious.

"Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart"
swap meet-- Nirvana

I had a wierd week-end. No I'm not going to talk about it. I'm just glad to be back in the nati. I drank with Virginia tonight and watched Cannibal the Musical. I'm really stoked about meeting her. Thank you madeline. We've had some really cool conversations. I showed her some of my pictures and other random stuff from my past. It was awesome, she actually seemed interested. You know how sometimes you'll show someone some of your pictures and they just kindof flip through them, well she actually looked at them and asked questions. It made me so happy.
time waits for no man.


"only in dreams
we'll see what it means" -Weezer

Cheap booze yes... Company no...
Billie Holiday feels my pain. So i've laid myself on the floor listening to her and wanting to love so badly.

I've been playing my guitar like a madman and I need new strings already. i guess I'll just have to take it easy. No fucking way... Nothing will stop the noise!!! I just got off work and took a shower. Ah Clean.
My plans for the evening, cheap booze and good company. Hopefully. Otherwise I'll just have to drink myself stupid.
Monday is 'get things done' day. There are a couple of things I've been slacking on so I need to wrap those up.
Nap maybe?

I spent my last 13 dollars on a case of Corona last night. I thought Shanna was going to come drink with me but she never showed up so around 2am I really started getting hammered. Not much was going on at Mike's so I started to mope home in the rain until I decided I was too drunk and too wet to keep going. I called Micah and he picked me up.

feelin' pretty lazy today actually. I have to work at 7 and then I think I'm going to go to Mike's and play my guitar. Oh yeah I finally got my amp back. Woo-Hoo!! Bored Bored Bored....

We drank, we smoked, we rocked out until 5 in the morning, we spray-painted a bunch of shit in Mike's house, we all passed out. A good time was had by all.
I ended up getting 4 cases of PBR.
I put new strings on my guitar so I was sounding pretty good and the guys I played with were great too.

I wanna go skate so bad...
This is fucking sweeeeet!
Photo by: Critical Thrash

Monday night is going to be rock n roll mayhem.
My amp is done and I can pick it up. rule!
Oktoberfest is going on, free beer for me.
Listening to the breeders and loving the fuck out of it.

I feel much better now that the crazieness on my page is gone. I ran into this really awesome girl tonight while at the club. I was talking to her about my writing and she started telling me about her literary magazine The Blue Writer. What's interesting is that among my journeys around Clifton I've seen flyers for submissions to the collaboration. So I'm pretty stoked about sharing my writing who could possibly want to share it with the local world.
Here's on of the things I sent

Drooling drunk guy
Spontaneous drunk staggering
Religious raunchy ralphing
People pleasure pleasings
Mind-trip Mangalings
Drip-drop dangalings
True thoughts wandering
Sick sluts swaggering
slip-slop slabberings


"Who wishes to be creative must first blast and destroy accepted values." ---Nietzsche

Good Night....

I'm so fucking pissed off right now. I was skating around enjoying a mild day and found this sidwalk that had a really mellow hill about 200 yards long. I bombed it and was just about to go down it again, when a rent-a-pig came walking my way. I thought to just skate off the other way but I was just to lazy. He came up and gave me the "you can't skate here" bullshit and took my SS#.
If I had a dollar for everytime I heard that I'd be a rick mother-fucker.

In other news, I'm well on my way to getting a school. There are about 3 pretty cool schools here that I'm interested in. I've been accepted to Antonelli and I'm fairly certain that I want to go. I feel like the experience I will gain their will outway the fact that I will only have an associates degree when I get done.
Pros------
1. Only takes 2 years and I'm done.
2. Tons of options and rescources.
3. 80% female student body.
4. I'll gain a degree
5. I'll gain a portfolio
6. If I want to later I can transfer my credits to another school.

Cons-----
1. Associates degree as apposed to a Bachelors
2. Costly

I can't really think about that many bad things.

I'm rolling my own cigarettes. I'm about to play GTA3 and kill a bunch of cops!!!!
"Tata tata tat that's me killin' the cops"

Club Vertigo...

Remember those guys in high school that put freaks in trash cans? Welcome to vertigo. Also very frat party feeling. Oh well fuck it, I got drunk, and I had fun with the guys I went with. I looked at booty shakin' and drank 2 pitchers. The guy that let's us in is 20 yrs. old and works there. He said he makes $600 bones a week. That's pretty fat.

Other than the terrible 15 yr. old music, and the ditsy tri-delts, I thought the club had potential for a good time. I'll probably go to Goth night sometime and see what happens.

"What.. she trip, fall on his dick?"

full moon night ravings.
at about 6:30 this evening I was drunk off a couple beers and now I'm trashed on the tussin. Oh yes, Sean's sippin the sizzup.
I have to work tommorow at like 5 tommorow. I sitting in the apartment sans shirt, no shoes, bad breath, stinkin' pits and headphones halfon my head so I can listen to the Breeders. I had kindof a crazy night tomight and I don't think it's over yet. I met this girl who goes to this art school I heard about today. it's called Antonelli and I guess it's downtown somewhere.
Speaking of girls, I've been hanging out with this girl meagan. She's just a friend and she's pretty fun to be around. This guy I've been paying guitar with was trying to be her boyfriend so that's kindof wierd but they'll both get over it. I like Meagan, I like Ian. Ian and I are getting our dex on tonight and I'm fizzucked. He took off for a walk and I don't know if he's coming back or if he got arrested or what.
Well I'm going to call Al and mayhaps Linz and tell them how fucked up I am.
Taste the Rainbow

Tonight's Saga: A laughable situation

It's 1:30 in the morning and I just got off work. On my way home I was bombing ,as it is downhill most of the way home. A cop heading up the hill and hit thier lights. I skated over to where they where getting out of thier pig-wagon.

me- how's it going?
pig- can I see your I.D.
me- why?
pig- are you a car?
me- no.
pig- then what are you doing in the middle of the street.
me- I just got off work, I don't have my I.D. and I'm on my way home.
pig- well, I need to run your I.D.
me- O.K. I'll gladly give you my information.
pig- What? Your immature attitude needs to stop.
me- O.K. I'm just trying to co-operate with you. Why are you so upset, I'm just trying to get home. I just moved here 7 days ago. Is there some sort of law against riding a skateboard in the street?
pig- You need to grow up.
me- What!?
pig- are you a moving vehicle.
me- no but my board is a moving vehicle and I was riding on my board so yeah I guess so.
pig- I could charge you with civil disobediance.
me- for skateboarding home? (I chuckle at the civil disobediance charge)
pig- where are you from?
me- Madison, IN.
pig- Is it OK for you to skate down the middle of the street in Madison.
me- Yes. I talked to several cops there who would rather leave us alone skating a hill than waste thier time with us.
pig- Well I don't know how it works where you're from but here you can't just ride down the street. What do you think a judge would say if you showed up in his courtroom tommorow morning a with civil disobediance charge?
me- He'd probably laugh and tell me to get out of his courtroom.
pig- I seriously doubt that'd he'd laugh.
me- Are you going to run my I.D? I'm having a great time talking to you and all, but I'd like to get home.
pig- You really need to grow up and realize that you're not helping yourself any acting this way.
me- What, acting like an intelligent adult that knows his rights, and refuses to have them trampled on by you?
pig- No, I'm not going to run your I.D. because there's probably just some juvenile offenses.
me- Please run my I.D. I'd love to see what you think about my absolutely clean record and certainly no warrants.
pig- I didn't say you have any warrants.
me- O.K. So are we done here?
pig- You need to stay out of the streets, or I will take you in for civil disobediance.
me- OK well have fun.

So I skated away down the sidewalk and didn't look back.
Civil Disobediance is truly a laughable offense

I went to this great show tonight with Micah. The Gazelles! played in which the drummer is someone I know from Jr. High. The first band didn't start until 11 so the show went late into the night. After the gazelles! played I took Micah home and bombed Ludlow back to Northside. It was a great ride and when I got back the last band was playing. They were really good and afterwards everyone piled out of the front door to where I was sitting. I talked to Andrew and we decided to go up the street to this guy Chris's apartment. We sat around. talked, listened to NOFX and smoked cigarettes. After awhile we realized that none of us were fucked up enough so we asked Chris what if any narcotics he had in the apartment. He found some ridilin and I chopped it up. I played some guitar badly. We listened to some Lou Reed and then left. It's now 5:49 AM Sunday morning and I have to be at work at 6pm. I might get 8 hours of sleep, we'll see.
I'm excited to be finding new musicians on a daily basis. Hopefully I can start playing with some people and get together a band.
ROCK ON!!

I got a job today and worked 8 grueling hours. I went in for an interview, came out with a uniform, and 8 hours of pay coming my way.

In other news, the natti is treating me well. I found some kids to play music with and my search for musicians to form a project with are coming along well. I played an open-mic last night and I sucked. It was really hurried and structured and my performance showed it. I've been writing a lot and my stuff is getting better.
I've had a change of opinion about music. In my acoustic ramblings, the music was about goofing around and just having a good time. But now that I'm getting better, i feel I should be moving toward a more expressive form.

I hope you are all well...

Sinking in my pool of misery
breathing in the liquid
Letting everything turn to black
and never leave the bottom

stopping my breathing
my blood is seething
letting go of my life
waiting for the end

Letting out my last breath
my muscles will relax
tears float out of my eyes
more salt for my wounds

stopping my breathing
my blood is seething
letting go of my life
waiting for the end



feeling sea-sick? yeah me too.

I will be updating once again after I redesign the site.
Later

OK so I can't get that thing to go away so everyone ignore it. I'm moving some of my stuff down to Johnathan's today and then we're going to a protest. I'm surprised at the amount of people that came out last week. They've decided to assemble in front of the court house every wed. until the war ends. I think it's really cool that some of the local kids want to be heard. I'll tell you about it later.

Johnathan really needs to kick his housemate out. I think it would be good for me to get out of my parent's house. (hmmm I think we all knew that one!) It would be so awesome to live downtown again.
I've been working like crazy, it's been great. It just kindof sucks to look outside when it's so nice and have to go to work. Oh well, gotta do it.
I don't know why I failed to mention this before but my phone got disconnected so if you've been trying to call me that's why it's saying whatever it's saying to you. Sorry everyone (dave)