I'm so glad that I'm quasi-evil. Seth Green's hot.
I'm talking to Kasey Bradley right now on ICQ. He's such a bitch. He was always really shitty to me in H.S. and even when I got out. I tried to help him and his band out several times but he always ignored me. He seems to be treating me decently tonight.
I'm sure there will be more of me for you later.

These are some Blogs that I was perusing this evening:
a winter's rose

Aneurysmic


THis one isn't a blog but interesting none the less. Sit down throw in some Radiohead and check out this site. The girl in the middle isn't even close to as hot as my girlfriend (are you my girlfriend yet? say yes!)
Half-project

Cera, I Love and Miss you very much
I'm 70% evil!

I went job searching today. I picked up like 5 applications. I've already turned in several. I stopped by the VP in town and talked to the manager, she said that she was getting ready to set up interviews and she'd call me. Of all the VP's I've ever been in that one is by far the shadiest. Is that a word? Probably not. Shady like Shady. Speaking of shady I was listening to an edited version of the Marshal Mathers LP this morning. What's the point. I stopped listening to it about 3 songs in because I was tired of listening to all the silent parts.
I've been looking at apartments in Chicago. I'd like to find a cheap house to live in since hopefully it's going to be at least 4 of us moving up there together. I found a two bedroom apartment that I think we could all fit into. I have to find something cheap because if I don't there's no way any of us will be able to do it. So if it's small I think I can deal with it. I'll be in chicago for crying out loud.
I looked at this place last night.
Here's where it is
I'm listening to Dido's No Angel. It's not really that great. Oh well.

So...
Cera and I are not going anywhere at the moment. Too bad. Cancun sounds really nice. I just wish I could spend more time with Cera. I'm just as likely to find a job in Bloomington as I am here. I know I sound like i'm just stupid in love but really. I have sooo much fun with Cera and it doesn't even matter what we're doing. Hell i had fun with her at a Monster Truck Rally! That's impressive.
Keep looking for a job and keep my goal to move with her to Chicago in the summer.

Well apparently Cera Angela and Ashley and I are taking of for a beach to live for awhile. Sounds great to me. I say Mexico. Cancun to be more accurate. She said she'd call me back soon. I think it's a fabulous idea. I wish I had money to help fund the venture.
Later from somewhere else maybe.

Today Amanda and I went to Mad-town. We saw Micah and hung out with him for awhile. We were playing frisbee in the park but it was almost too windy. I hung out at my house for quite awhile and my dad didn't show up. Oh well. Not much going on.
I miss Cera more and more everytime she leaves.

Oh you want good music huh?

The red-headed stranger is the last of a dying breed of folk-singers. His musical inspirations have touched the hearts and minds of many a hick and joe q public alike. Painting a picture with a soothing voice and early country style guitar playing. A confessed pot smoker and loving friend to many he lives in the hearts of all truck drivers.

I'm really stoned right now.

here are the lyrics to one of the first songs of the newly formed band: Fat Man Falling? (band name may be subject to change prices and partiticipation may vary)
I want a band We'll play some noise
when i'm all strung out I wanna be with my boys
I wanna scream I wanna dance
you'll be so fucked up you'll be in a trance
We'll be so bad we'll suck really hard
There's no security we can't afford guards
Outside the door kids will say wow
that music in there sounds like a cow
better dance now better dance now
if not on your feet i'll make you bow
if I'm acting strange up in your face
i'm probably just hwasted like a big disgrace

White Trash Night!
OK so the big date surprise was getting dressed up like total rednecks and going to the Monster Truck Rally. Yes I did say the Monster Truck Rally. Overall I think the intended goal for the evening was accomplished: Piss of some hicks, look at some incredibly disgusting mullets, and yell incredibly loud for the worst truck out there. Several weeks ago Cera and Angela were in Rensellear bored and they saw a John Deere sign that screamed "steal me!" So for white trash night they painted "Wolverine" on the back of it to take and hold up. It was funny. We got some really weird looks. The way I looked, if I saw myself out on the street, I'd kick my own ass. We had a lot of fun just running around acting like total assholes.
The after-rally plans didn't go so well. We were supposed to go to Matt's to get hwasted but Ryan got a migraine and bailed on us. So Angela, Cera, and I are driving to find Matt's place when we enter this apartment complex were every freakin' building looked exactly alike. Needless to say we didn't find it the first time or the second time. Angela was getting pissed because she wasn't going to get to see this girl named Ashley. It turns out that Ashley got a flat tire on the way to Indy.
I had a great time with Cera and really I had a lot of fun. If it wasn't for Angela's bitching it would have been a lot more fun. Let it roll.

I've got a date tonight!
I'm so excited. I still have no idea what's going on. Cera said she'd be here around 4. It's already almost noon.
I know I'll have fun.

I recorded some interesting stuff tonight. maybe I can talk to Al and figure out how I can post it for people to listen to.
Date with Cera tommorow night!!

This is a Q&A from Poppy Z Brite's website. She updates it herself which I think is fantastic.

"Q--I read on-line that a studio is going to do another Crow movie called Lazarus. It's supposed to star DMX and be about a gangster rapper. Did they just want to use the name or is this going to be a bastardized version of your work.

A--I doubt that it has anything to do with my book -- the parallels between the Crow mythos and the Biblical character Lazarus are obvious, so it's a natural title to choose. I like DMX and am seriously hoping this movie won't suck. But I don't keep up with movies, so for all I know, it has already come and gone."

She likes DMX??? how is this possible?
I wish Cera were here to read me to sleep.

THE SIMPSONS ARE ON!!!!!
WOO HOO!

"If we were so influenced by video games why didn't Pac-man make us all run around in the dark eating strange pills listening to techno music?"
All your base are belong to us.

Ever since the first time I saw "Clerks" I've wanted to work at a movie rental place. Today I took a personality test for the Movie Gallery which I'll be called about tommorow. I wish Micah were here to be the Dante to my Randal.
I wish it was Saturday. Cera said that we're all having dinner at Ryan's, doing whatever it is that we're doing, then going to Matt and Megans apartment. I still have no idea what we're doing. Cera asked me my pant size. I don't know why. Why would she need my pants size for an evening in Indy?
I look like eraserhead.

Well in typical "life of Sean" fashion, when it's bad, it gets worse. I talked to my dad for quite a while today and he said that he won't be able to sign a loan for me. After I got of the phone with him I cried for about 15 minutes, cut off my hair, cried some more, then I called the Institute to tell them, more crying and then a ridiculous amount of cleaning.
It's been such a wonderful day!

I'm having a bed-in today.
Not for peace and not against big buisness but because I Love Cera. That's right Love. I'm having a bed-in for Love. And if Cera were with me she'd be right next to me.
It's quite a dreary day here in the gut of Indiana. Depressing weather should always be accompanied by loud depressing music, low lighting, little food, and most importantly somewhere comfortable to just sink into all day. I hope my dad calls tonight with good news. I need him to tell me that I can go to school because he figured everything out.

Man, I want a cigarette.
I was quite productive today. Not really. I did get several applications and filled most of them out. Hopefully by the end of the week, I'll have a job. I took a nice nap. Listened to some music. Did some drawing. Ate some food. Yeah.... real exciting.
About as exciting as this;
Gumby!

Revolutionary Art Rock
Listening to "the lou reeds collective" I'm thinking about Deric and what silly rabbit he is.
I miss you Cera.

The harsh bitter truth of reality hit me with quite a blow today as I watched her driving away. We had such a fantastic weekend of just hanging out with one another (no obstractions) watching movies and making out. It was wonderful. I think she had a good time. I hope so anyway. She was taken away this evening in a such a hurry there was little time for releasing one another once again. It's usually a long process. I miss her just as much as I would any other time but the let down of her going was not a harsh as the long drawn-out times.
We had a great time watching "The Stand" which is 6 hours long. It was an all day process, but an interesting movie. I thought Satan's role could have been more developed. They concentrated on "good guy's" a lot more than the "bad guy's" I guess they do that in most moving though don't they? Oh well it was a great day with Cera, exept for the beating I recieved for about 30 minutes. She's so funny and fun. It's interesting, Instead of fighting about something we internalize whatever it was and hurt ourselves. I think I have things to work out. We've never had a fight. We're both so easy going about things that we don't have any objections to what the other person does as long as they're having fun. I Love her.

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