Friday night Cera and I made our way to Muncie.

Our our arrival we found out that we didn't know where anyone was because they got kicked out of 525. That place was my first home post-high school and so it has a definate place in my heart. Driving around I got lucky and saw a friend of mines's car. We talked for a minute and we found out where the Lou Reeds live.
When we got there people were just waking up (it was 4PM) in tipical Muncie fashion so everyone was groggy. We got beer and people started to show up. The show that night was at this new place in town called the Speakeasy. It's actually a really hip joint and I like it but when we got there we found out that we had to stay upstairs. THe bar and stage are downstairs so for the whole show all we could see were the tops of people heads and the bands from the waist down. We went back to the house arfter the show, got drunk, talked to a whole bunch of people and passed out.
When we got up we were super hungry so we went to King Guyro's and I got the guyro special while Cera stuck with a fat veggie sub. We hung out and slept at the house all day until we got up to go to this rave party that a bloomington friend of ours Featha was going to spin at. My goal for the night: Make out with as many people as possible. My unfortunate total: 2. I know, how lame is that but actually I got really drunk and had an awesome time. Featha ended up not spinning due to the shrooms I think but I think she had a good time too.
Today our plan is to go to indy and see Rick and D D Dave.

I started on "The Art of Happiness" a few days ago and I am very interested in some of the things Mr. Lama (haha) has to say. I've actually been surprised by many of the 'thought patterns to achieve happiness' that I already use. I have more specific thoughts on the book but I have them written done in a notebook that is not currently at my disposal.
I've been applying like mad to different places around town and calling people as well. The manager at McDonald's is on vacation so I have not been able to talk to him. Hopefully I'll get a job before he gets back so I won't have to work there.

"We are all human beings."

So basically I have hit bottom. As Al said some people's bottoms are lower than others but I'm pretty sure that mine is lower than most.
I shaved today.
I applied to McDonald's today.
I'd rather be in bed today.

I talked to Al tonight. It sucked because the reception on my phone sucks a whole lot here.
I put my hair up in tails all over my head. Robo. Stuff.
I learned that Long Beach is close to L.A. tonight.

Just gimme a beer!!

I don't know why but a nice cold mug of beer sounds like the best thing in the world to me right now.

Work...
Sleep...
drugs...
sleep...
Work...

I was working on my book this morning (I should say afternoon since I went to sleep at 6 this morning and got up at 2) and I was trying to figure out why anyone would want to read my book. I wonder if Bukowski felt the same way while he was working on his first book. I think if he can get a book published about wandering around trying to find a kick or a girl then I can too.
I went for a skate this morning before I went to sleep and it felt great. I've been working on my kick-flips a lot and it's paying off. My flips are more consitant I just need to start landing them.

Well, here in the midwest the seasons are already starting to change... Bluck!!! Man I was hoping to be ready to leave by now but things got off to a rough start after I quit Kingfish. Things are looking up again though and hopefully I'll be getting a job in Seymour that pays a lot more and I can get more hours working.

I was playing Chess today with Harry (my step-mom's father) and he destroyed me. Chess is very much like life: look around before moving, you must always be as ready as possible, defense and offense go hand in hand. Sometimes you just don't know what move life will take next, but hopefully you'll see it coming and take appropriate action.

For awhile I was struggling with the way the world was headed but now I'm just not worried anymore. What will happen will happen regardless of what I do or say. Now I'm not saying that I won't give in to the corporation or to religion, or any other corrupted institution out there. I'm just saying that I'm going to do the best for myself that I can do without fucking anyone over in the process.

Lindsay, I miss you too. I'll be in California as fast as my working class hands can allow.

The open mic went great.
I started off with a Nirvana cover (actually it's the Vasaleans sp?) Jesus don't want me for a sunbeam. After I played it I said "if you don't know who that was you suck." and out of like 70 people 4 of them yelled out Nirvana. It's a sad sad world when everyone's forgotten grunge. I decide that I'm not punk rock at all last night, I'm just a hard-core grunge skater kid. Not to put a title to who I am; just a representation of some of the things that partly influence who I am.
After that I played an original that most people seemed to have liked.
"the next songs theme is Capitalism will get you killed" Now to say that in front of a mostly upper-class conservative crowd I'm surprised I wasn't pulled of stage and beaten by a few football guys. But the only thing I could hear was a little feedback so I slammed into my last song "the exploitation song"
Walking off-stage I could hear the MC trying to figure out what to say. I Loved It!! I'm sure I blew some people away and I did it with a musical instrument; what a rush. I packed up my guitar and headed into the crowd to find Cera and some friends of mine. I actually got some mean looks from some of the jock looking guys. That just made me feel even better about my performance.

Tommorow night I'm going down to Louisville to skate the park. It's going to be great. I have yet to skate there with my good friend Johnathan so I'm stoked. He's really good so I can't wait to see what he can do there. And I've gotten a lot better so I want to show him a few things too.

Capitalism will get you killed...

I'm playing an open mic night on Sat. and I've been going through my songs trying to find two good ones that I should play. I've been skating more lately now that I have a board again. I badly want to go to Louisville again.

THings here suck and they will never get better. Over my lifetime hanover has become so filled with Jerry Springer guests it's ridiculous everyone I talk to has a kid, or a sister who's knocked up by their cousin, people in jail, I hate it with all of my being. There is so much bullshit in this town that people just let happen and almost seem to be OK with it. I was talking to this guy I went to school with (I don't think he graduated) and he asked me how I was doing and I told him that every day in hanover is the worst day of my life, and to that he got offended and told me how much he loved it here. I think my heart stopped momentarilly and when I realized that it was his loss it started back up again.
THat's a pretty good explanation of how life is for me right now. I found out about this job in seymour where I can work 3 days a week and make $400 every week. Unfortuanatly it's at the Wal-Mart distro and you know how much I hate Wal-Mart.

Hey Everyone!
I've been living in the technological void known as Hanover, IN. Unfortuanatly for you guys this means I can't update my page as much as I would like to. There are things going on right now that suck a lot. Actually more suck than fun but I'm trying. I have a cell-phone now (call me a capitalist if you like but I felt that it was a necessity) so if anyone would like to call me the best time is after 9 Central Standard time.

So... it's sunday... it's my last day in OB.... I'm stoned and I'm a little drunk!!!

See you tommorow Cera. ;-)

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Unfortuanatly for me I broke the 3 rules of drinking last night.
1. Don't eat a bunch of food if you plan on getting drunk.
2. Don't drink a crap-load of something that you've never had before.
3. Don't smoke after getting drunk.

So while I was throwing up on the balcony Al took some pictures of me and then showed them to all the party guests. Then everyone left. Great... not only did I get sick but i disgusted everyone to the point of leaving. Today is a new a wonderful day. We're going down to the OB streetfair. It will be mucho fun.

I MISS YOU CERA! You should e-mail me.

So today we finally got to go surf again. When we got back I went out to take pictures and Al worked on a project.

Right now there are a bunch of people here. "The Brazilions"?? are here and I feel kind-of out of place but no worries I'm having a good time. I just plan on getting really trashed.

Later Loyal Readers!!!

SUN GOD! This is all I ask of you... Please give me sun and waves at least one more day while I'm here!

Another gloomy day here in OB...

I went skating at the Ocean Beach Skatepark today and I ended up with a bruise on my chest and a scrape on my hip-bone. That felt great.

I miss Cera and she's taking her driving test tommorow. I know she'll do fine.

Cigarette Buzz!!!

Man today was a disapointment. The marine layer covered the sun all day so it wasn't really warm enough to go surf and my ankle wasn't well enough to go skate. Oh well, it was still another great day in O.B.

Every day people all over Ocean Beach stop what they are doing, walk down to the beach and marvel at the ocean and the sunset. It's like some sort of crazy cult of the sun or something because you can look up and down the cliffs and see people everywhere just sitting and watching it. It's beautiful. Not only is the sunset of the Ocean awesome but there's also the added bonus of watching the waves crash onto shore or the rocks or the pier.
I Miss You Cera!!! It's 8:25 in the morning so your time it's 10:25. I'm still up early. I Love You!!!